batgirl801: (Default)
2009-06-03 09:38 am

Seen on Best of Craigslist

I found this on the Best of Craigslist today, and I found it pretty inspirational.

Originally Posted: Wed, 6 May 15:10 PDT
It aint easy being a fat chick

Date: 2009-05-06, 3:10PM PDT

Some observations from a 43 year old 5 foot 4 230 lb woman....

I have been working really hard at changing my life. I am down 35 lbs, up probably 10 in muscle. The first thing to vanish was my boobs and the last thing will be my frickin' belly. I feel much better, my eyes are clear, my clothes are all too baggy and fried food bothers my stomach. I also, for the first time in my life, find obese people upsetting and almost disgusting. This bugs me, it is hypocritical at best, I am still a fat chick!

Here are a few things I have noticed so far -

1. Most men still think me vulgar and ugly, never mind my pretty face and personality. But now, I am starting to see men at the gym doing one of two things - they either speak to me because I have somehow managed to be a gym rat in their eyes or they are starting to pay attention and be nice to me because they think that by some miracle I will screw them once I lose a bunch more weight, granted, this is my instinct speaking, I could be totally wrong. Either way, anyone who wasn't man enough for me as a really fat chick surely will not be man enough for me in the future, it kind of pisses me off.

2. 35 lbs is A LOT of fat. Next time you go to the grocery store, take a look at packages of hamburger in 1 or 2 pounds. Add it up, it seems massive. It feels that way too. Who knew that 6 months ago when walking on the treadmill hurt my feet so bad I could hardly walk that now I am biking and running.

3. Women are for the most part, negative about my success. Disguised as some sort of twisted cheering me on, most have something negative hidden in everything they say. WTF is that? Women truly are insane!

4. Trainers are useless to me! Most of them are just slick salesmen who studied one book and took some test (not all, but this has been my impression and I have made it my business to get to know them all). The nicest people I have interacted with have been the biggest, baddest, buffest dudes and the most ripped ladies. Somehow they can see beyond the obvious and pick up on the fact that I am absolutely driven and determined. Some of them have been instrumental in proper form, putting together a solid work out and how to make a program work.

5. Chicks that wear a bunch of makeup and wear their hair down at the gym looking super hot are THE MOST SUPERFICIAL creatures walking the planet, AND they are dumb as rocks. What a waste of such beauty.

6. Building muscle and losing fat hide themselves and manifest themselves in the strangest of ways. I plateaued at 35 lbs a month ago and yet people who haven't seen me in a month are still going "WOW you are losing weight!". So don't get so down when you hit one, your body is just adjusting, it is natural and a part of the whole deal.

7. It SUCKS being the fat one at the gym, it is not easy to walk into a place of sculpted beauties looking so pitiful. You have to absolutely dismiss all of those feelings and it is not easy!

8. Gay guys absolutely hate fat women at the gym, it makes no sense to me but they have mad attitude.

9. There is so much to learn, un-learn in bad habits and re-learn in good ones. Give yourself a break, you didn't get fat overnight, its not going away overnight. You have to stick with it, invest time and time pays off.

10. Young guys are much nicer than the young ladies.

11. Don't be a chicken! People bigger than you feel just as awful and awkward as you do, dare to share your enthusiasm with them, it really does help.

12. I hate brown rice and oatmeal, but they are my friends.

13. If you are gonna eat carbs, get your ass on the cardio machines and use them!

14. Elyptical (sp?)machines are supposed to be easy on the knees, what bullshit! They are also usually made for people 5 foot 5 or taller.

15. Don't freak out when you build muscle in your upper body and your bras get tight! Build enough muscle and the fat will start to fade, it will pass.

16. 6 meals a day really is a great ticket, eat protein with each and every one of them.

17. If you are really working the weights, start incorporating a protein shake of some sort immediately after your work out - if you wait more than 20-30 minutes your muscles will try and eat themselves.

18. One word - DERMAFINE-MD. It WORKS just as well and is much cheaper than Strivectin.

19. Please for the love of all things sacred, lose weight for YOURSELF. Forget the porn/media driven body image and trying to be something for someone else. You MUST strive above all to do it for YOU (everyone else gets a bonus when YOU succeed).

20. COUNT EACH AND EVERY CALORIE AND MAKE THEM COUNT. If you don't eat enough, your body will eat your muscles, if you eat too much and the wrong type, back comes fat.

21. YEP - that guy you absolutely could not believe was looking at your hoochie when you were doing leg presses really was. Nope, he doesn't want to screw you but somehow can't NOT look.

22. YEP - that awful bimbo who looks at you with such disgust really does think you a loser, fuck her and the sugar daddy who bought her those boobs.

Well I am rambling, I just wanted to share a little of what I have learned and seen. I hope it helps someone out there. You really can be successful, just remember that courage is not the absence of fear but the judgment that something else is more important than fear - YOU!
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2009-05-18 10:26 am

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This is my inaugural post.

I'm going to attempt to keep a record of my art here, hopefully I'll be able to keep up with it!
batgirl801: (joking.)
2009-05-01 09:01 am
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Ham Flu's the thing.  I really think people are WAY overreacting to this Swine Flu "pandemic". Yeah, its a little scary that people are dying from the flu, but you know what? lots more people die daily of other illnesses.  And people die from the REGULAR flu. A lot of people.  

I think what makes me most upset is the fact that people are avoiding pork products now.  You cannot get the swine flu from eating pork.  Let me repeat that, in a louder, bolder fashion:


"People may contract swine flu by touching something with viruses on it and then touching their mouth or nose." (

"The new strain is an apparent reassortment of four strains of influenza A virus subtype H1N1.[63] Analysis at the United States Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) identified the four component strains as one endemic in humans, one endemic in birds, and two endemic in pigs (swine).[63] One swine strain was widespread in the United States, the other in Eurasia.[63] Although called swine flu due to it predominantly containing swine strains, the World Organisation for Animal Health have proposed the name North American influenza because this new strain in its entirety has not been found in swine (pigs).[64] Worldwide the common human H1N1 influenza virus affects millions of people every year, according to WHO officials, and "these annual epidemics result in about three to five million cases of severe illness, and about 250,000 to 500,000 deaths."[65] In industrialized countries most of these deaths occur in those 65 or older.[65" (Wikipedia)

Notice how the WORLD HEATH ORGANIZATION wants to call this thing the North American Influenza.  Because it comes from birds, humans, and swine.  and the new strain, has not been found (in its entirety) in pigs!

Come on people.  Lets cut the panic already.  And Russia, I'm looking at you.  Buying your pork from America will not give you Ham Flu. Let's keep the economy moving, by purchasing more bacon.  Because everyone loves bacon.

batgirl801: (Jessica Rabbit)
2009-02-20 02:29 pm

Jill's new Hair

so, here are some crappy (and I DO mean crappy) cell phone pictures of my new hair.  Two were just now at work (the curly versions) and the straight one is the night I did it.


It's close to my original color, just  a little more orange, and a little darker.

wow.  my skin looks kinda terrible in these pics.  Stress'll do that to you I guess.

Oh, and they are doing open casting calls for the Biggest Loser again, I want to do it.  Anyone wanna do it with me?

batgirl801: (Jessica Rabbit)
2009-02-16 10:51 pm


I just dyed my hair.  I have never actually done that before.

I've had highlights, but that's not really the same (in my opinion).

It's still red, just a more orangey red now.

I really really really really like it :D

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2009-01-29 10:52 am



I'm laughing so hard that I'm crying.

batgirl801: (joking.)
2009-01-27 09:36 am

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I got a Flat Tire on the way to work today.

there is no better way to start off your day. 


and yes. I drove on it. not that far, but probably far enough to muck things up. 
batgirl801: (Default)
2009-01-14 03:09 pm

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WE had an email chain going with some friends from school, and here's my response, I wanted to keep it here for posterity. 

 I'm homeless right now.
the address I gave you guys (244 N Hague Ave) is still officially vacant, because we haven't moved into it yet.  I talked to the post office, and they said they could hold the mail, but it would be to the PO closest to the house, which is way down in grove city ( looking at a clock, that's like 6:30, and I am staying/working at like 10:30). It may not seem like far, but it is.  So...I guess for now, just hold onto all mail? and I will let you know when we officially move in.
I really appreciate that you thought of me, and sent me christmas cards!  That was very nice :)  I'm real sorry that I didn't get around to them this year :( 
I never did the Pilates with you I'm not real sure, but i DID try a yoga class with my friend Lisa, and DAMN. that stuff is hard!  I only went once, because it pretty much kicked my ass, but Lisa and I did join a gym, and we try to go at least twice a week.  I don't want to call them resolutions, but I have made a few "life goals" and one of them includes getting much healthier.  I know that I am beyond out of shape, and it's going to take a lot of work to get back into the neighborhood of "shape".  Hopefully I'll be able to look back at your wedding, Samantha, and think that I look hot :)  that's the goal.  wish me luck! Good luck Samantha!  I know that we can do it :) we are wonderwomen!
Another big reason that I want to get healthier, is that I want to have babies.  I think about babies all the time. ALL the time. Names, clothes, preschools, babysitters, toys, more names, baby food, baby strollers, baby everything.  I've got babies on the brain.  But I know that my body is not really ready for babies.  And neither are our finances, which is another "life goal".  Seriously though, does anyone else have babies on the brain? Well, I'm sure vicki does, since she's got one brewing in there :)  I feel like not many of my friends have reached the baby-frenzy stage yet, which is completely fine, I was just curious if anyone else was starting to feel that pull.  Maybe that is the biological clock that everyone is always talking about ;)
And Shraderade, I miss you guys like crazy.  I yearn for a night in, playing games, like Shout about Movies, or whatever it was called.  Those are some of my favorite memories of college :)  Claremont was teh street separating Kem and the student center, right?  The one that had the bridge?  I remember bits and pieces of classes, but I have trouble remembering which class it was that I'm thinking about, especially the non-core classes, because it always seemed to be the same people in my classes with me. Including you, Shrader :)
In closing, sorry the mail got returned, I love you all, and wish us luck with our workouts!
And help me think of baby names, even though I'm nowhere near preggers!
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2009-01-02 12:04 pm

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January:  Life is full of transitions. 

February: No entries

March: my dog is missing

April:  No Entries

May: No Entries

June:  so here's a fun little gem
[Bad username: ]
I am drinking some pinot grigio (sutter home) and watching "the notebook" on network television. 

July:  I Love my mom. 

August:  happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me!

September:  so...I got in my car this morning to go to work, and switched the radio to WNCI 97.9 like I normally do, to listen to the morning zoo.

October: No entries

Novermber:  No Entries

December:  No Entries

Wow.  Guess I didn't have much to say this year. That's kinda funny...since I actually had a LOT going on.  I probably should have made more of an effort to LJ my thoughts. 

That'll be a goal for this year, one of many. 2008 was a lot of things.  A lot happened, some good some bad.  I'd say it focused more on the bad.  The good parts, however, did manage to keep my spirits up, fairly well. Don and I got married, that will be a bright spot ingrained in my memory for  a long long time to come. I'm going to give a rough breakdown of all the bad things, simply so I can look back later and marvel at my ability to get through it all alive.

(not necessarrily in chronological order, but I'll try as best as I can)

My car was totaled in an accident. Turns out we didn't have insurance, and neither did the drunk woman who hit it.  (good news, no one was seriously injured.)

About a month later, Don's car was repossessed. They towed it away while I was at work, with all of our belongings still inside.

Our honeymoon was booked through skybus.  Skybus went under teh DAY of our wedding. 

My Tenants at Hague stopped paying their rent, because some repairs needed to be done to the house. Hoever, I couldn't fix the repairs unless they paid me.  Catch-22.

House on Hague went into foreclosure. 

Aaron and Ryan were evicted from teh apartment that they were subletting from of course that is on MY record, now. 

Don's businesswent under.  This is the big one.  We lost  a lot of money, and still owe a LOT of money to his investors.

We had to put Frazier down.  That's a hard thing to do.

We've been nearly evited forom the house in forest hills about 4 times.  We finally moved out, and are currentlt homeless. But I did a homesaver advance on the house on hague, so we should be moving in there shortly.

Well, that's pretty much it.  There's more that goes with each of those items, that I don't really want to relive in order to write down. 

I'm going to try to grab ahold of my financial freedom in the coming year,.  I've already got regular payments coming out of each paycheck to pay off the citi financial autoloan (the jetta) and capital one (my one and only credit card).

staying at hague should help a lot, because the mortgage payments are a lot less than our rent was.  And sad as it is to say out loud, it is a lot less expensive to feed two dogs than three dogs. :(
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2008-09-22 09:11 am

K-Fed, this one's for you

Urban Dictioary Word of the Day:

September 22: Desk Rage
The peak of office employee stress levels which ultimately starts with the screaming of vulgar language within the workplace. It can often times lead to assaulting fellow employees, abusing office equipment and/or stealing of company property, abusing sick days and ultimately poor production at work. A possible side effect is that the employee continues to take out his or her rage at their residence in the form of kicking small animals and drinking heavily.

With my pending at work and the amount of people calling me each day I'm on the brink of desk rage and one day I'm going to break and take it out on that weird guy that sits next to me.

I think maybe that what you have!  At least the first sentence is completely accurate :)

batgirl801: (Jessica Rabbit)
2008-09-11 10:55 am

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 At the risk of cheapening the entry I made earlier this is a meme! It's been a long time!

1. There are 30 questions. 
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits. 
3. Answer one question with one name. 
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme. 
onward to the meme! )
batgirl801: (batcave)
2008-09-11 08:32 am
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seventh anniversary

so...I got in my car this morning to go to work, and switched the radio to WNCI 97.9 like I normally do, to listen to the morning zoo.  Instead of the raucus laughter of the DJs, I was bombarded with a Lee Greenwood tribute megamix.  It took me totally by surprise, and I had to think for a minute why they would be playing "proud to be an American" in September.  Then it hit me. 

Today is September 11th.  As the realization struck me, My vision blurred and my chest became tight.  It was hard to choke back tears, so I didn't even try.  The sing was full of soundclips from newscasts on and after 9/11/01, from dan rather to George W. Bush.  When the song ended, there was a rush of phone calls to the radio station, each and every one of them expressing heartfelt gratitude to the normally crass and vulgar DJs for showing so much respect.  Every single caller shared that the song had moved them to tears, so I didn't feel quite so childish anymore.

I was taken aback by the thought that it has been <i>seven years</i> since the attack on New York and Washington. Seven years.  I was a senior in high school.  I remember sitting in my math class, my english class, my science class and my government class, watching the news on the tiny TV in the corner of the room.  I left school at 10:50am, because I was in work/study, and I was scared to drive the 5 minute journey to schlotzsky's to go to work.  I kept my eyes on the skies, expecting to see a fleet of enemy aircraft overhead, just like you always saw in the old newsreels from the world war 2 era.  I remember been very panicky and jumpy at work, and then when I got home, I freaked out and drove each of our cars to the gas stations, separately.  I thought there was going to be a fuel shortage or something (see how insightful I was?).

I'm not sure when exactly I stopped being so afraid, or when the panic lessened...I know that the episode of saturday night live that week made me feel better.  Rudi Guillani started the show by giving his permission for them to be funny.  Well, actually Lorne Michaels asked if they were allowed to "be funny" and Rudi replied "why start now?" 

In the past seven years, I've thought about the attacks off and on, I've been annoyed at the blind jingoism that was left in its wake,  I was disgusted by Toby Keith and his "Boot in their ass" song, and I've been worried about the countless soldiers that have gone overseas to fight.  We caught Saddam, we're still looking for Osama.  I never really knew anyone that went over to fight, none of my really close friends or family went.  My cousin Thea's husband was over there, and that was tough, but I rarely even see her, let alone him.  I think I had met him maybe twice before then.  So somehow I felt separated from the war.  I knew there was a war going on, but I didn't feel directly impacted. 

I don't know what it was about this morning, but it all hit me. We are at war.  it has been a long time since the initial attacks, and we are still at war.  People are dying every day, and so many lives have been lost.  My heart broke for everyone who had been personally touched by the effects of the attacks and the war, even though my life had not been directly affected.

So friends, please remember today, and everyday, that there is still a lot to mourn.  I was close to forgetting, and I thank Dave and Jimmie on the morning Zoo for snapping me back to reality.
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2008-08-28 09:25 am

Hi-jacked from K-Federation

From What Privileges Do You Have?, based on an exercise about class and privilege developed by Will Barratt, Meagan Cahill, Angie Carlen, Minnette Huck, Drew Lurker, Stacy Ploskonka at Illinois State University. If you participate in this blog game, they ask that you PLEASE acknowledge their copyright. (Updated 2008 version below, from Step into Social Class 2)

Bold the true statements.

1. Father went to college (before you turned 18) I think he took a few classes....I don't remember
2. Father finished college (before you turned 18)
3. Mother went to college (before you turned 18)
4. Mother finished college (before you turned 18) well, she went to osu, then graduated from nursing school...
5. Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor aunt bobbie, the professor at cscc!
6. Were the same or higher class than your high school teachers (I really don't know...I assume we were the same, because I didn't notice a difference)
7. Had more than 50 books in your childhood home
8. Had more than 500 books in your childhood home (I don't really know how many we had. It was a lot. And we were constantly at the library.
9. Were read children's books by a parent when you were growing up
10. Had lessons of any kind when you were growing up piano! for three years! And I cstill can't even play
11. Had more than two kinds of lessons when you were growing up
12. The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively (I don't really know hwo dresses and talks like me...)
13. Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18
14. Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs
15. Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs
16. Went to a private high school
17. Went to summer camp
18. Had a private tutor before you turned 18 It was one time, because I was out of school for 6 weeks with mono.  and she sucked.
19. Family vacations involved staying at hotels and motels (as opposed to KOA or relatives homes) we also would rent cabins or houses on the beach!
20. Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18.  when I was a wee alss, mom went to 'Once Upon a Child' for some things
21. Your parents gave you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them
22. There was original art in your house when you were a child
23. You and your family lived in a single family house
24. Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home
25. You had your own room as a child.

26. You had a phone in your room (or your own cell phone) before you turned 18
27. Participated in an SAT/ACT prep course
28. Had your own TV in your room in High School
29. Owned a mutual fund or IRA in High School or College++
30. Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16 my first plane ride was in 8th grade
31. Went on a cruise with your family
32. Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up
33. You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family
34. Had a computer at home when you were growing up
35. Had your own computer at home when you were growing up.
36 (US version). Been to Europe more than once as a child or teen
36 (Int'l version). Been to the US more than once as a child or teen
batgirl801: (Drunk!)
2008-08-01 09:54 am

(no subject)

happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me!
happy birthday dear Jiiiiiilllllllllllllllll
happy birthday to me. 
batgirl801: (OMG)
2008-07-27 12:09 am

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I Love my mom. 

she's got to be one of the coolest moms in the world.

We just spent the evening together. We saw "Hancock" (which was good, I really enjoyed it) and then went to see Don at B-Dubs (where he is a server).  She tipped him really well :)

Then we saw my brother.

And we chatted about her love life.  I love that she loves her life. She deserves it. She deserves to be happy.

I love my mom.
batgirl801: (Default)
2008-06-23 11:01 am
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opinions please

How do we feel about chicago?

or more specifically, Me living there?

Nothing is decided, we haven't really discussed it further than a mention.  So nothing is in stone, nothign is planned. I'm just trying to figure out how I feel about it. 

at work today, Jed, Lisa J, and I were making a pro/con list.  Here's what we came up with:

Free place to live
Lots of culture (theater, museums, etc)
a change of pace
ability to actually save some money
Public transportation
not THAT far from our families/friends

Won't know anybody
Crappy winter (but so is Ohio's, right?)
Distance from families/friends
higher cost of living

That's all I've got.   Let me know what you think!
batgirl801: (sawyer)
2008-06-17 12:02 pm

A new You, err, me!

 one day, what is the world coming to?!

So, I've decided to take charge of my life and work foward some fitness goals. 

After visitng a few websites and doing some research, I've learned that the ideal weight for my height is somewhere between 121lbs and 163lbs.  Also, based on myself now, I should be injesting around 2100 calories a day.  So I am going to start tracking them. 

So far today, I've had:

1038 calories.  And that is with two meals already. 

I'm keeping track at They allow you to track the foods you eat and the activity that you do.   They also help you pick a goal weight and a goal weight date, and tell you how much you have to do to reach that goal. Quite helpful, really. 

So, To reach my goal, I need to lose 2.75 lbs ber week, which I think is really doable. 

I'm going to need help with this people, so if you see me eating tthings that are bad or drinking heavily, smack me in the face and tell me no. 

"sobering" fact:  lite beer has roughly 100 calories/12 oz!  that adds up really fast!
batgirl801: (sawyer)
2008-06-17 08:37 am

(no subject)

I really love the weather the past few days. It's been pretty perfect. 
batgirl801: (Drunk!)
2008-06-14 10:34 pm

(no subject)

so here's a fun little gem: 
[Bad username or unknown identity: ]
I am drinking some pinot grigio (sutter home) and watching "the notebook" on network television. 

I am texting laura ([info]tigergerer

and olsen an wallace and lisa.  but only laura is texting back.  the rest suck.

except I want wallace and chris to come get me.  they are so much fun1

MAYBE i'VE HAD MORE WINE THAN I thought i did.

my bad.

don's a t a DJ audition.  out in canal winchester.