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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 09:38am on 03/06/2009
I found this on the Best of Craigslist today, and I found it pretty inspirational.

Originally Posted: Wed, 6 May 15:10 PDT
It aint easy being a fat chick

Date: 2009-05-06, 3:10PM PDT

Some observations from a 43 year old 5 foot 4 230 lb woman....

I have been working really hard at changing my life. I am down 35 lbs, up probably 10 in muscle. The first thing to vanish was my boobs and the last thing will be my frickin' belly. I feel much better, my eyes are clear, my clothes are all too baggy and fried food bothers my stomach. I also, for the first time in my life, find obese people upsetting and almost disgusting. This bugs me, it is hypocritical at best, I am still a fat chick!

Here are a few things I have noticed so far -

1. Most men still think me vulgar and ugly, never mind my pretty face and personality. But now, I am starting to see men at the gym doing one of two things - they either speak to me because I have somehow managed to be a gym rat in their eyes or they are starting to pay attention and be nice to me because they think that by some miracle I will screw them once I lose a bunch more weight, granted, this is my instinct speaking, I could be totally wrong. Either way, anyone who wasn't man enough for me as a really fat chick surely will not be man enough for me in the future, it kind of pisses me off.

2. 35 lbs is A LOT of fat. Next time you go to the grocery store, take a look at packages of hamburger in 1 or 2 pounds. Add it up, it seems massive. It feels that way too. Who knew that 6 months ago when walking on the treadmill hurt my feet so bad I could hardly walk that now I am biking and running.

3. Women are for the most part, negative about my success. Disguised as some sort of twisted cheering me on, most have something negative hidden in everything they say. WTF is that? Women truly are insane!

4. Trainers are useless to me! Most of them are just slick salesmen who studied one book and took some test (not all, but this has been my impression and I have made it my business to get to know them all). The nicest people I have interacted with have been the biggest, baddest, buffest dudes and the most ripped ladies. Somehow they can see beyond the obvious and pick up on the fact that I am absolutely driven and determined. Some of them have been instrumental in proper form, putting together a solid work out and how to make a program work.

5. Chicks that wear a bunch of makeup and wear their hair down at the gym looking super hot are THE MOST SUPERFICIAL creatures walking the planet, AND they are dumb as rocks. What a waste of such beauty.

6. Building muscle and losing fat hide themselves and manifest themselves in the strangest of ways. I plateaued at 35 lbs a month ago and yet people who haven't seen me in a month are still going "WOW you are losing weight!". So don't get so down when you hit one, your body is just adjusting, it is natural and a part of the whole deal.

7. It SUCKS being the fat one at the gym, it is not easy to walk into a place of sculpted beauties looking so pitiful. You have to absolutely dismiss all of those feelings and it is not easy!

8. Gay guys absolutely hate fat women at the gym, it makes no sense to me but they have mad attitude.

9. There is so much to learn, un-learn in bad habits and re-learn in good ones. Give yourself a break, you didn't get fat overnight, its not going away overnight. You have to stick with it, invest time and time pays off.

10. Young guys are much nicer than the young ladies.

11. Don't be a chicken! People bigger than you feel just as awful and awkward as you do, dare to share your enthusiasm with them, it really does help.

12. I hate brown rice and oatmeal, but they are my friends.

13. If you are gonna eat carbs, get your ass on the cardio machines and use them!

14. Elyptical (sp?)machines are supposed to be easy on the knees, what bullshit! They are also usually made for people 5 foot 5 or taller.

15. Don't freak out when you build muscle in your upper body and your bras get tight! Build enough muscle and the fat will start to fade, it will pass.

16. 6 meals a day really is a great ticket, eat protein with each and every one of them.

17. If you are really working the weights, start incorporating a protein shake of some sort immediately after your work out - if you wait more than 20-30 minutes your muscles will try and eat themselves.

18. One word - DERMAFINE-MD. It WORKS just as well and is much cheaper than Strivectin.

19. Please for the love of all things sacred, lose weight for YOURSELF. Forget the porn/media driven body image and trying to be something for someone else. You MUST strive above all to do it for YOU (everyone else gets a bonus when YOU succeed).

20. COUNT EACH AND EVERY CALORIE AND MAKE THEM COUNT. If you don't eat enough, your body will eat your muscles, if you eat too much and the wrong type, back comes fat.

21. YEP - that guy you absolutely could not believe was looking at your hoochie when you were doing leg presses really was. Nope, he doesn't want to screw you but somehow can't NOT look.

22. YEP - that awful bimbo who looks at you with such disgust really does think you a loser, fuck her and the sugar daddy who bought her those boobs.

Well I am rambling, I just wanted to share a little of what I have learned and seen. I hope it helps someone out there. You really can be successful, just remember that courage is not the absence of fear but the judgment that something else is more important than fear - YOU!
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 10:26am on 18/05/2009
This is my inaugural post.

I'm going to attempt to keep a record of my art here, hopefully I'll be able to keep up with it!
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 09:01am on 01/05/2009 under ,'s the thing.  I really think people are WAY overreacting to this Swine Flu "pandemic". Yeah, its a little scary that people are dying from the flu, but you know what? lots more people die daily of other illnesses.  And people die from the REGULAR flu. A lot of people.  

I think what makes me most upset is the fact that people are avoiding pork products now.  You cannot get the swine flu from eating pork.  Let me repeat that, in a louder, bolder fashion:


"People may contract swine flu by touching something with viruses on it and then touching their mouth or nose." (

"The new strain is an apparent reassortment of four strains of influenza A virus subtype H1N1.[63] Analysis at the United States Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) identified the four component strains as one endemic in humans, one endemic in birds, and two endemic in pigs (swine).[63] One swine strain was widespread in the United States, the other in Eurasia.[63] Although called swine flu due to it predominantly containing swine strains, the World Organisation for Animal Health have proposed the name North American influenza because this new strain in its entirety has not been found in swine (pigs).[64] Worldwide the common human H1N1 influenza virus affects millions of people every year, according to WHO officials, and "these annual epidemics result in about three to five million cases of severe illness, and about 250,000 to 500,000 deaths."[65] In industrialized countries most of these deaths occur in those 65 or older.[65" (Wikipedia)

Notice how the WORLD HEATH ORGANIZATION wants to call this thing the North American Influenza.  Because it comes from birds, humans, and swine.  and the new strain, has not been found (in its entirety) in pigs!

Come on people.  Lets cut the panic already.  And Russia, I'm looking at you.  Buying your pork from America will not give you Ham Flu. Let's keep the economy moving, by purchasing more bacon.  Because everyone loves bacon.

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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 02:29pm on 20/02/2009
so, here are some crappy (and I DO mean crappy) cell phone pictures of my new hair.  Two were just now at work (the curly versions) and the straight one is the night I did it.


It's close to my original color, just  a little more orange, and a little darker.

wow.  my skin looks kinda terrible in these pics.  Stress'll do that to you I guess.

Oh, and they are doing open casting calls for the Biggest Loser again, I want to do it.  Anyone wanna do it with me?

I'm Feeling: : 'bored' bored
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 10:51pm on 16/02/2009
I just dyed my hair.  I have never actually done that before.

I've had highlights, but that's not really the same (in my opinion).

It's still red, just a more orangey red now.

I really really really really like it :D

I'm Feeling: : 'artistic' artistic
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 10:52am on 29/01/2009


I'm laughing so hard that I'm crying.

I'm Feeling: : 'pleased' pleased
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 09:36am on 27/01/2009
I got a Flat Tire on the way to work today.

there is no better way to start off your day. 


and yes. I drove on it. not that far, but probably far enough to muck things up. 
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 06:40pm on 20/01/2009
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 03:09pm on 14/01/2009
WE had an email chain going with some friends from school, and here's my response, I wanted to keep it here for posterity. 

 I'm homeless right now.
the address I gave you guys (244 N Hague Ave) is still officially vacant, because we haven't moved into it yet.  I talked to the post office, and they said they could hold the mail, but it would be to the PO closest to the house, which is way down in grove city ( looking at a clock, that's like 6:30, and I am staying/working at like 10:30). It may not seem like far, but it is.  So...I guess for now, just hold onto all mail? and I will let you know when we officially move in.
I really appreciate that you thought of me, and sent me christmas cards!  That was very nice :)  I'm real sorry that I didn't get around to them this year :( 
I never did the Pilates with you I'm not real sure, but i DID try a yoga class with my friend Lisa, and DAMN. that stuff is hard!  I only went once, because it pretty much kicked my ass, but Lisa and I did join a gym, and we try to go at least twice a week.  I don't want to call them resolutions, but I have made a few "life goals" and one of them includes getting much healthier.  I know that I am beyond out of shape, and it's going to take a lot of work to get back into the neighborhood of "shape".  Hopefully I'll be able to look back at your wedding, Samantha, and think that I look hot :)  that's the goal.  wish me luck! Good luck Samantha!  I know that we can do it :) we are wonderwomen!
Another big reason that I want to get healthier, is that I want to have babies.  I think about babies all the time. ALL the time. Names, clothes, preschools, babysitters, toys, more names, baby food, baby strollers, baby everything.  I've got babies on the brain.  But I know that my body is not really ready for babies.  And neither are our finances, which is another "life goal".  Seriously though, does anyone else have babies on the brain? Well, I'm sure vicki does, since she's got one brewing in there :)  I feel like not many of my friends have reached the baby-frenzy stage yet, which is completely fine, I was just curious if anyone else was starting to feel that pull.  Maybe that is the biological clock that everyone is always talking about ;)
And Shraderade, I miss you guys like crazy.  I yearn for a night in, playing games, like Shout about Movies, or whatever it was called.  Those are some of my favorite memories of college :)  Claremont was teh street separating Kem and the student center, right?  The one that had the bridge?  I remember bits and pieces of classes, but I have trouble remembering which class it was that I'm thinking about, especially the non-core classes, because it always seemed to be the same people in my classes with me. Including you, Shrader :)
In closing, sorry the mail got returned, I love you all, and wish us luck with our workouts!
And help me think of baby names, even though I'm nowhere near preggers!
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posted by [personal profile] batgirl801 at 12:04pm on 02/01/2009
January:  Life is full of transitions. 

February: No entries

March: my dog is missing

April:  No Entries

May: No Entries

June:  so here's a fun little gem
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I am drinking some pinot grigio (sutter home) and watching "the notebook" on network television. 

July:  I Love my mom. 

August:  happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me!

September:  so...I got in my car this morning to go to work, and switched the radio to WNCI 97.9 like I normally do, to listen to the morning zoo.

October: No entries

Novermber:  No Entries

December:  No Entries

Wow.  Guess I didn't have much to say this year. That's kinda funny...since I actually had a LOT going on.  I probably should have made more of an effort to LJ my thoughts. 

That'll be a goal for this year, one of many. 2008 was a lot of things.  A lot happened, some good some bad.  I'd say it focused more on the bad.  The good parts, however, did manage to keep my spirits up, fairly well. Don and I got married, that will be a bright spot ingrained in my memory for  a long long time to come. I'm going to give a rough breakdown of all the bad things, simply so I can look back later and marvel at my ability to get through it all alive.

(not necessarrily in chronological order, but I'll try as best as I can)

My car was totaled in an accident. Turns out we didn't have insurance, and neither did the drunk woman who hit it.  (good news, no one was seriously injured.)

About a month later, Don's car was repossessed. They towed it away while I was at work, with all of our belongings still inside.

Our honeymoon was booked through skybus.  Skybus went under teh DAY of our wedding. 

My Tenants at Hague stopped paying their rent, because some repairs needed to be done to the house. Hoever, I couldn't fix the repairs unless they paid me.  Catch-22.

House on Hague went into foreclosure. 

Aaron and Ryan were evicted from teh apartment that they were subletting from of course that is on MY record, now. 

Don's businesswent under.  This is the big one.  We lost  a lot of money, and still owe a LOT of money to his investors.

We had to put Frazier down.  That's a hard thing to do.

We've been nearly evited forom the house in forest hills about 4 times.  We finally moved out, and are currentlt homeless. But I did a homesaver advance on the house on hague, so we should be moving in there shortly.

Well, that's pretty much it.  There's more that goes with each of those items, that I don't really want to relive in order to write down. 

I'm going to try to grab ahold of my financial freedom in the coming year,.  I've already got regular payments coming out of each paycheck to pay off the citi financial autoloan (the jetta) and capital one (my one and only credit card).

staying at hague should help a lot, because the mortgage payments are a lot less than our rent was.  And sad as it is to say out loud, it is a lot less expensive to feed two dogs than three dogs. :(


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